Not to be crass, but for the small steps I'm managing to take, happiness is indeed the ability to get up from "the throne" without any assistance. Last week I had my husband remove the handles we had added to it since I no longer needed them. I can arise from most furniture unassisted, but it seems that the seats in restaurants are particularly difficult for me to navigate, especially in a booth. I need something on both sides to push myself up, and in a booth, the back is too high for me to get a grip. Sometimes I can slide out on my own, sometimes not. And I don't really mind if two or three people turn to stare. I'm just thankful I can now walk, and am getting better every day! If I had not had the knee replacements, I'd probably be in a wheelchair for life. One learns these things and appreciates the good in them.
My husband has been my shining angel in all this. I just don't know how I would have made it through both surgeries without all his care, love, and assistance. After my first surgery, I was happy to be able to take a shower when I got home, but that first shower tired me out so much I could not even lift my arms to finish drying myself off. It's hard to imagine that now, but that was how weak I was.
The physical therapy was not something I looked forward to, either, being the "sit and read" type for decades. I did play softball as a child, rode my bike everywhere . . . but that was then, and this is now. In spite of my lack of desire and ability to exercise, the therapists took me as I was and made me into a person who could take care of herself. I'm now stronger than before, albeit still lacking in stamina. That will come, and I can tell it is improving. I'm not 25 anymore, you know!
Would I do it again? An unqualified "yes," but the pain was still terrible. My advice (whether you want to hear it or not) is that you'll know when you must get those knees replaced, because they hurt so much you can hardly live your life. I had arthritis, and had suffered a bad fall the year before, but thankfully I didn't break any bones. Dr. Mines told me that in my first surgery, my kneecap was to the left, and in the second surgery, the knee muscles were twisted, and he had to straighten them out. That accounts for the fact that this second knee, although less painful initially, has given me more trouble in the healing process. It still refuses to bend very far easily, but it is gradually getting better and hurting less.
I look forward to the rest of my life now. During the initial stages of recovery, I felt so awful (doubtless because of the strong pain meds which I had to take) and hurt so much it was hard to see over to the other side: that post-op period when one begins to have some semblance of a normal life, something I hadn't had for years because my knees were so bad.
I'll never be able to run a marathon, or even a mile, because one is not supposed to do such after knee replacements. That is fine with me, because I never wanted to do that before!
My family has been supportive and loving, cheering me on for every small step I've taken, and I appreciate their love, too. Our doxie Duke has been a good companion and nurse to me, staying by my side and reassuring me with a doggie kiss now and then.
The Lord has seen us through this, and I am eternally grateful for everything He's done in my life.
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